i do not

i don't know. i don't know. i don't know. i said i don't know. you are someone whom i don't know. i don't know who you are. i just don't know....

no desire to...

when suddenly everything seems so blank to you and that you're lost in the midst of nowhere. feels rather painful to know that no one is there for you. you stood there. all by yourself. you looked for the answer, but you couldnt find. you're pissed for being so forgetful and that you couldnt recall. you gave up for not being helped. you just gave it up and never wanna talk about it ever again. never wanna think of it again. never wanna even give a fucking damn.

sing this song to me baby... :)

Love the lyrics...



I know they wanna come and separate us but they can't do us nothin
Your the one I want and Im a continue lovin
Cause your considered wify and Im considered husband
And Im a always be there for you
And either way you look at it I aint goin no where from my muffin
Cause she gonna hold it down, cant no body tell her nothin
You got the kind of love that always make up after fussin
And thats what gets me closer to you

And no one knows
Why Im into you
Cause you'll never know what its like to walk in our shoes
And no one know, the things we've been through
Can never measure up to half of what I put you through
Thats why we'll break through

And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And I dont care what they do
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you

Seems like every day that go by things are gettin harder
Want to be the one that give you the whole enchilada
Cause I know what my baby like, I lean you on that Prada
You aint got to match with the shoes
All about knowing you Im into doing things to keep her longer
Stickin together forever, watch you grow stronger
Thats the way it has to be, everything proper
Keepin it always true

And no one knows
What Im into you
Cause you'll never know what its like to walk in our shoes
And no one know, the things we've been through
Can never measure up to half of what I put you through
Thats why we'll break through

And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And I dont care what they do
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you

You are everything in my life see the joy you bring
And aint no one I compare you to
And I know that you will never walk away from me no matter what
And thats why I plan to do the same thing for you
And I want you to know

And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And I dont care what they do
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you

its been 4 mths...

it was a day with lots of affection. lots of kisses. lots of bites. :) despite the unplanned disaster on saturday, we managed to go out to the suntec city games convention on the following day. i was glad that i wasnt late. hee. and met my gorgeous syg at yishun.

when we reached suntec, i tot of going for a nice treat to pre-celebrate our 4 mths anniversary. and he goes saying,"ok. :) where you want to eat?" and i will always go blur with that question. lol! pizza hut? pastamania?? hmm... and so we walked down and see this INDONESIAN SUNDANESE RESTAURANT, having ala-carte buffet for $15++. i think that would be worthwhile. so we give it a try. weehheeeee. so romantic. mkn pat restaurant. ader fountain pat luar. waiter smiled at us asking if we were dating, and my bf say "heheh. takderlah. anniversary..." lol!! so cute :) dah memang kalau kiter dua makan, dats it, we will make sure the restaurant make some loss. lol! cos i know both of us are gourmet people. we will take advantage of the buffet!! all we do is eat eat eat! syg eat sampai dua tahu telur, concluded 3 for the day. maner tk happy. lol!

then we went to the convention. wow! so crowded! so cool! so interesting!! syg cant take his eyes of those tigers :) i wish i was working already. i wanna get it for him. all of those!! but haish... wat to do... and to my surprise, he saw a pooh on a shelve and i was wondering how come i dont see it ehk?? lol! it was huge!! and i go aaaaaarrrhhhhh!!! pooh!! and he asked "you want?? :) " and i will always reply "i dont want. :) *blink*blink*" lol! then we go round to walk2. then came back to the same shop. lol!! i have no idea how we can get back to that shop. he took out his cash and threaten me to buy. lolol!! how loving and sweet was that haha! he knows i want it despite me saying i dont. :) thats my syg. :D

i was happily hugging that huge pooh around and syg is happily laughing at me. lol! penat tau tgn... people around asked me how much how much. some adorable kids goes "wahh!! pooh so big!!" heheh :) im so lucky, i tot to myself. thank you sayang...

i was so damn happy. for a moment i felt i was a little girl back again. it feels even better to have my love with me. kissing me. hugging me. hmmm... so beautiful...

i love you...

fine

how well things go nowadays makes me tremble. scared. wonder. how come there isnt any problems?? or troubles??? lol! maybe you are just used to facing the same old same old problems, you tend to adapt to it. no fights. no dissatisfaction. no cries. no worries. no pressure.

interesting...

but im sure... it will be back... very soon...

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